Fun Fact: When you spend a couple months in the hospital your boyfriend breaks up with you.

I texted him on Friday because it's been forever since I've seen him, and it was one of those things that immediately after I did I wished I could undo it. I texted him "I'm doing better now & I miss you." I don't know if that was too annoying or if I should have just said that I want him to come visit me. But anyway it's Monday and I haven't heard from him or anything.

I'm torn between wanting to text him again and wanting to text all my friends and ask if any of them know what's going on with him. I really do miss him, but I feel like he's already broken up with him just by distancing himself. And I guess he'd have wanted to break up soon because he's going out of state for college, but I thought we'd at least have this summer and go camping or hiking or just hang out around the house.

Now I do a lot of the thing we used to do together except I do them alone and it breaks my heart. I kind of really need someone right now.